Peace from Broken Pieces: How to Get Through What You're Going Through by Vanzant Iyanla

Author:Vanzant, Iyanla [Vanzant, Iyanla]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Hay House
Published: 2010-09-14T16:00:00+00:00

When you don’t know who you are,

Chances are you don’t know what you want.

When you don’t know what you want,

There is no chance for you to get it.

CHAPTER 10

M E AND M ICKEY MOUSE

Almost a year had passed since I had last heard from Harpo. Other than a few close friends and Gemmia, no one knew the pain I carried in my heart and soul about what happened. Greater than the pain, however, was the shame. How do you explain to people that Oprah Winfrey kicked you to the curb? I had a bizarre kind of loyalty to her. I wouldn’t talk about what had happened, because I didn’t want anyone to think ill of her and I was ashamed to admit my role in it. Instead, I convinced myself and everyone else that I had left of my own accord to do more writing and, perhaps, my own show.

Then I received a call from Buena Vista saying that since I was no longer on Oprah , they really would be interested in talking to me about launching my show. It put a smidgen of truth in my fabrication. It gave me something to focus my energy on. It forced me out of the house, away from my depression and sadness.

The contract negotiations went quickly. I was about to make more money than I had ever imagined. With the deal inked and ready to go, Gemmia and I started planning for the future. I still had most of the huge check I had received from my Oprah appearances. I did something that Gemmia and I had been planning for years. I bought a building. Finally, I was going to have a spiritual center, a place where the work could continue long after I had ceased to be. We decided to pay for the building outright and borrow the money to do the renovations. We created a business plan, established a board of directors and went to the bank. With the promise of future income in my contract, the bank gave me a loan for the amount I had paid for the building, $1.3 million. They put the money in escrow and struck a deal whereby I would pay only the interest for five years. They would roll the cost of the building into the overall loan for $3.5 million.

The sight of that many zeros on one line, attached to my name, made my head spin. But Gemmia was totally comfortable; she had a business acumen that I had never developed. I was afraid to have money and afraid that if I had it, it would go away. She believed that money was just a means to an end, and our end, as we had envisioned it, was a good one. Her calm gave me the tummy comfort I needed to move forward. She and my business manager handled all of the details. I just showed up and signed wherever they pointed.

I was so proud of myself. In fact, when I sat and thought about it, I could feel a bit of joy brewing inside of me.

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